A Turn for Bliss

Ayo~!

So I`m home.. after a one night extend from school. I know, why would I wanna do something like that ? It`s just I wanted to settle some things and go home free of useless load, like homework. Let me tell you one or two things that happened during my stay. Okay, I slept a lot, of course and this one time when I woke up after a nice nap I heard some construction workers outside. Yea I was kinda scared but I had my door locked right after a friend ditched me to go see some people. I was all alone and the only thing I could think about was the toilet. Yes, the toilet.

The bliss I was talking about ? I have no idea, I just thought I`ve finally fitted in the school`s society even though going to the surau for Subuh is still hard. I don`t know some of the girls from my batch but it`s okay, I`ll get to know them some other time. The thing is, I don`t know how to say this but sometimes I can be someone I want to be there. I don`t mean I`m changing 180* and forgetting who I really am. It`s just that the two schools I`ve been through, if you`ve been here with me for this 4 years and add up my traits from both schools, you can see the 100% me. Yea, 50% real me is in my old school and the other 50% is here at my new school. Do you get it now ? I`ve never been my whole self.

Some problems, we just have to shrug it off. It ain`t easy especially for us girls but when you learn to see the silver lining in everything bad then you can enjoy. Life is like eenie meanie miney mo ( i don`t know if i`m spelling it right), it`s all you and your choices, smart or stupid. I mean, you can tell which is which so tataa...

It`s A Brand New Day

Okay.. as you all know.. I`m in a new school now, with new friends and also new things happening to me. Guess what happened to me ??

Okay........ since no one actually knows me there (including those two other guys who transferred with me). I try to act more... nicer and somehow change my usual impression. Let me tell you this, at Besut, I`m recognized as some kind of nerd (cuz I wear freakin glasses and I`m kinda smart..so yeahh...). Not just a nerd you know, because somehow I`m cool enough to hang out with some people and one more thing. I`M NOT CREATIVE, zero creativity. I mean, my art teacher turned down my drawing for like a gazillion times *np-I remember-bang yong guk feat yoseob*. Yes, it was just one drawing and to tell you the truth, I thought the little chibi chicks I drew was pretty cute. From the bottom of my heart, I like two things, drawing and d******. Yea.. I`m telling you these stuff because no one ever reads this blog.

I really like drawing you know.. even though I don`t have talent. I just do it (especially on my homework). Yea.. somehow my best friend found this out in that new year memo I made. Ughh... she always knows where to poke into my stuff. Okay... that was a lot about drawing. So I`ll draw there. Actually do something when we have anything related to art. And there`s this girl who doesn`t look down on me, she actually said that art wasn`t about how good you`re at it, it`s just something you do. So I`m kinda motivated here ^.^. I wanna change my image too.
That nerdy image I was babbling about earlier. I`m still me though so that`s that. But somehow I think I overreact when I`m in my room with the other girls. The things I always do doesn`t seem normal to the others even though they were also from other MJSCs. I`m normal, at least to my old dorm mates. I guess that`s just plain culture shock.
 Head warden ? Been there and I never wanna get into the same situation again. I`m okay if it`s just plain caning, it`s the babbling I can`t stand. I mean, why so serious ? Oh yeah.. and my unit commander, boy wasn`t he serious. Ughhh... it`s just marching ! It`s not even international like artists` shows and they get to goof off. Seriously, I could die in PLKN. Hear this, starting my year, every post-SPM student will have to go through a 6-month army camp so called the PLKN. One mistake, yell! Another one, yell! Hello, I live in a civilized society,dude. I am so not the army type. Give me a gun, I can train. Just no pressure. *under pressure, pushing down on me . Pressing down on you no man asks for*


Ohh and because I don`t have official friends yet, I never care about anything my classmates or my roommates do,especially the ones I`m hooking myself to. So I`ve trained my not caring skill there. It`s awesome. Yeah.. my other roommates are kinda active and I always get the room to myself and the things I do when I`m all alone is highly top secret information. If you`re smart enough, you can guess because there`s a clue up there.
I`m active too.. but not that kind of active. Sometimes I play netball and sometimes I play basketball with another roommate. Before this, it`s a rare thing for me to actually touch a ball. Told you, I`m talentless, even in sports.

Keke~ believe it or not. I`m on a diet!!!! Hahahaha.. so that`s it... tataaaa~

Is this The End ?

Ummm.. i don`t really know what to write for now.. i know ive been the worst blogger evr because i never post anymore. Yea.. im in a boarding school and i have a real busy life. Well, not that busy.. it`s just that nothing ever happens in my life. No adventure, no love story, just me,my friends n memories. Im being transferred to another college and it feels like im moving away to an adopted family. Leaving my best friends behind and all. I still cant take the truth in yet. so..is this goodbye ?

We had fun..together. Doing stupid things and getting trouble for them, it was nice. I loved the moments, the suspense. There`s just to many of em to remember now. There was this one time when the whole dorm left school (of course without permission) and tried to go to the market on foot. I don`t remember how many miles we went through but it was real stupid. One of our teachers caught us and called the warden,n what else ? We had cane marks as tattoos on our feet.

There`s this other time when we really wanna skip an assembly. The prefects caught us red handed in our dorm and told us to go. On our way, we slowed down to see if the prefects even go to that useless assembly  and not even a shadow showed up. Of course we went back to our dorm (it was so unfair that we had to go and they didn`t). Then they caught us again, the assembly was already over that time so we had to pay n we didn`t like it. So there`s was a feud n I don`t wanna talk about that.

We had the last dinner as one batch. It wasnt sad though and the food was freaking delicious. Everyone dressed up as if we were going on a red carpet event. The pics ? I don`t have it yet, i`ll put them in later.

So, the last day. I couldn`t cry at first. Everyone else did though, I did feel my heart ache but somehow my tear gland was broken and I couldn`t even let out a single tear. Oh and I had to leave a special someone, and he doesnt even know he`s special to me. The afternoon, when everyone was leaving, I cried. But it was just for a few seconds, my best friends saw them and she`s being transferred too. Just for you to know, she was THE bestest friend I could ever get. There was no way I could ever forget her.

Goodbyes are a part of life. Some you`d remember, and some you`d forget the very next second. So make yourself a goodbye everyone would remember. Even if it`s a bad or a nice memory. I`ll put down my pen for this story, and I know I`m gonna pick it up again and get on with the story some other time in the future. But for now, I need to get another pen and some papers.

My Heart breaker~

Hi ! Remember when I promised I`d post something about shoes ? Well, this post is gonna be it.

It happened the day I went to Mahkota Parade in Melaka. The one I talked about my little sis going from shop to shop for hours to find the right shoe. I was there , and Dad gave the permit for my own shoes. First there was this real funky shoe, it`s gray+pink and I really liked it. Since I didn`t really need any new shoes, I let my little sis try em but there was no size for her feet. So I tried, and .. it was like the shoe blended with me ,like I`ve found a soul mate for my feet but it was quite big so I asked for a smaller size. *suspense music* They ran out of the size. Waaaaaa~~~ tell me why why why? Ugh.. so I just watched my little sisters choose their shoes cause I`m too lazy to look for anymore shoes.

At the same sports store, yea.. sitting around is boring so I went on trying more shoes. I found another one that caught my eyes.. an orange+purple one this time. It was like a normal sport shoe, but I liked the colours and guess what happened when I tried it...yes! It blended with me perfectly, even better than the first one.

Ohh.. this one ?? Nahh.. I was looking for a pic of the orange shoe but I got nothing. Then I saw this one and I fell in love all over again. I was so sure of that shoe I asked Mom if she saw what I saw.. and she did ! One more prob, no size. Oh I hate you shoe. Two shoes broke my heart that day and I`ll never ever forget them. You may think it`s kinda crazy, but they were the first shoes that show who I am. What I`m actually like. Cuz I`m kinda the shy type with people I don`t know or.. don`t see much. 

One more thing before I say Taa.. I was playing this game called Kingdom Hearts and I had to fight Roxas. Ughh.. I played for more than 2 hours but I never get to beat him. Hate him.. it was always down to 2 bars left and he combo-ed me and killed me. It`s real hard.. and then the memory card and the controller kind of broke down.. hehe.. maybe I was too rough ?? Well.. I just wanted to say that.. I`m gonna miss the game when I go back to school. I didn`t get enough of games.

Alhamdulillah !

Hye guys ! You know what day is today ? Yea that`s right (omg.. that was totally Dora) ! It`s Wednesday...n my beloved Malaysians ... it`s PMR RESULT DAY !!

Yup.. I went to school , took my slip , met with friends and fled. I wanna tell you about the whole day cuz you might want to know how I felt before and after I took my result. So you see , it started in the morning. It was like an auto alarm clock in my body.. DING ! and I was awake. At first I thought ,` relaxxx.. it`s only 5 (actually 6)' . Then I heard someone in the toilet.. so I knew I had to wake up  cuz I have to go early. I walked around the house with a Call Me Maybe tune in my head. I didn`t know why I was so happy. I stopped for a while when I realized that mornings are one of the best times for prayers so prayed to the Almighty Allah SWT for straight As in my PMR. After getting ready I went on Facebook. Guess what happened ?? A special someone sent me a chat !! Yea.. and I was like ` what ?`. But I went with his flow like a normal me ( i know.. im the best actor eva) . Then my dad called to get in the car.. so end of chat with me special someone.

It was 10.59 and I was supposed to get to school at 11. Mom and Dad tortured me with the 80s songs and it was PAINFUL.. i mean.. REALLY PAINFUL. Then came up the radio ,`Hi everyone and thanks for tuning to *****.fm . You know what day is today ?? PMR RESULT DAY !` and a commercial for a university `Who in the world would not want to see their parents cry over their success` Ugghhhhhh... I mean.. why radio ???? why now ??? Then there came a message on the phone (cuz i subscribe news)  `30 500 over 440 00 got straight As in their PMR` I panicked all right ... especially when I saw that familiar water tank that`s supposed to be the sign ` Your school : 500 m ahead `.When I went into the office to take my slip... `ALIA *********` my counselor said my name with a smiling face and scared my soul out. Yes.. I died... NOT YET! `Congratulations... you got straight As ! Now take your certificate and go` I wanted to hang out more with my friends but I couldn`t find them so I gave up and fled.

You`re asking for after ??? I don`t know what to say how I feel after knowing my result. Happy fuel full ?? Of course ! then it was noisy ride home.. the end.. haha.. tataa now...

Just Nice~

A hello from Melaka you all !! Yea I`m in Melaka now and I`m having a really great day. I`m going to tell you about the two days in Melaka that was real surprising and I kinda like em.

So yesterday I arrived at Melaka and currently staying in Renaissance Melaka. I`m guessing it`s a chinese franchise cause the toilets have no water. My family got two rooms with twin beds so I don`t have to get cramped with my little sisters. Seriously, it`s horrifying. Nothing cool happened yesterday except when it`s time to go to bed. Man.. I didn`t want to get up at all. The pillows are just so cushy, the bed is wide and the linen is soft as silk. The best sleeping experience yet.

The awesome parts came today. Early in the morning my Mom went into my room and woke me up for my Subuh prayer. At first I didn`t want to get up... the bed was like a magnet then something crossed my mind ,` Pray and mom won`t bug me anymore , plus I`ll get pahala from Allah' and BOOM!! I got up.. got my wudhu and prayed. I know it`s not nice to get back in bed after praying Subuh but I couldn`t help it. I didn`t go to sleep anyway, Dad wanted to go for breakfast and man I was so hungry. My little sis had to iron her shirt first and she made me starve till I got a stomachache. I couldn`t enjoy the food.

The pool was cool. The breeze swept a hi to me and it was amazing. It was fun swimming in the pool and with the breeze. To be honest.. I was in another world when I was in the pool but I can`t tell you anything about it. I got bored of swimming an hour later so I went out of the pool and laid down on one of the beds there. Just enjoying the breeze and having the best moment ever.



After that I went to the shopping mall ( YEA I ACTUALLY DID !! MY DREAM CAME TRUE) but it was kinda torturing. We had to look for new shoes for my little sisters and only them. They wear high heels.. that`s the problem.. and on this holiday we need to go by foot so high heels are not up for the job. I was dragged along here and there , my every choice turned down but still.. I burned some calories walking here and there. I had the chance to browse all the beautiful clothes and it was amazing.


Tonight, I had dinner at a Chinese Muslim steamboat house. The food wasn`t very satisfying and the price is really overrated. There`s this one thing.. the owner was smiling.. just smiling even though we`re not happy with the food , that smile made me feel happy. Now I know smiles are miracles. Yea my dad was pretty bummed because he paid and not me. I`m gonna tell you something about shoes sooner or later but maybe later. I`m sleepy already.. Nite2

What to Do ??

It has been a month since the start of my precious holidays. Time goes by real fast.

To be honest.. I don`t think I`ve done anything fun this holidays except for playing games. Yea I know I`ve been to my relatives but that`s not fun. Just a responsibility as a family member. I wanna do stuff more like my taste but I don`t think that`s possible for now. I mean like.. mountain climbing , bungee jumping , sky diving  and anything worth remembering. I tried changing things I`d hate to have the next year but I get sick of things so fast. I should though...and maybe after this I will. Man.. I love this blog. Always knocking some sense into myself.

You know I`ve been playing video games, right ? I`m so into this game called Kingdom Hearts. I like the twisted story of Sora and Roxas. Seriously my type of game. I wanna look for other series so I can get the whole story you know. Apparently I`ve got the Final Mix and I kinda regret that. I`ve seen the game on the counter for so many times and I got the urge to take it and make it mine but I ignored it. So now I`m spending the rest of my days playing that game. Lame , right ? But still.. I don`t have anything else to do. My friends ?? You see.. since I went to my boarding school , I get kinda shy with my old friend. Cat got my tongue.. that kind of stuff.

I`m going on a holiday someday this month and secretly I really want to go to an amusement park and maybe plain shopping. I miss shopping you know. I`ve seen a lot of girls saying..`eeewwww~~ shopping is so girlish !! not ma style' and whatever. I like the line of fresh-smelling beautiful clothes , the cool breeze of style and the fun of it (especially with my friends) . We go `omg~ this is so cute ! *looks at the price* nah.. there are better shirts for us in this world of humanity.' Oh yeah and I`m the kinda of girl that spots worth looking people and whispers it to my friend. You know I`ve been on this trip right after the PMR with a friend of mine and I keep running away from a close enemy. Only she knows about it but she never really cared. There was one time I rushed out of a book store right past that guy and she was still checking out a novel. Gosh~ the moments were priceless. So I think that`s all for now.. taa~