Annyeong~!

Okay,as you see.

My beloved blog is no longer useful to me.So,I`m setting up a new blog.I`m gonna start a new life so that I could enjoy myself.All this time I`ve been posting negative thoughts onto this blog and maybe all the negative energy was attracted to it.I wanna be someone fun and positive so that I`m loved by the people around me.Trust me,the feeling of being hated is a nightmare.I`ve been through it many times and I don`t want that feeling again.Well,it was nice of you to visit this blog but I`ll try to keep my next blog kind of a secret because maybe there was someone who wanted this blog closed down.I`m not accusing anyone but this is just as a precaution.So,everyone.Taa and TQ..

Say No To War

Ok.Let me get things straight.

I hate war and I think it`s stupid.It seems like both sides want to show that they are 'cool' when the fact they have nothing else to live for.They just go and just show off their 'awesomeness' to whom they think is weaker than them when the fact is that they`re just human beings.NOTHING compared to their creator.i think the ones who avoid fights are the best.They`re low-profiled and just hide their anger from everyone.That`s why they`re likable.Tell me,who likes people who likes show off?No one,right?So,the moral of the story is stay low and karma will come and do the rest for you.

When you read my posts,you read about what happens in my life.THIS IS CALLED AN OPEN DIARY!I don`t show off my feelings at people.I don`t really talk about my feelings with people.I`m no good in talking.I`m only good in writing.So what if I say bad things about people in here.This is my diary.Why do you even bother visiting it.Am I right?Don`t you think it`s stupid to visit the blog of someone you hate?YES,IT IS!I`m just patient because I let go of everything I feel in here.I don`t look for trouble because I`m too busy living my life.I don`t to even try to live as someone else.I actually love myself and I want to be loved by everyone I love.If you want to hate me,just do it.Who cares?I`ll just hate you too.It`s easy.

War?Pick up your weapons and go kill someone.What is life to these people?Why do they attack people?Don`t they know how much a life costs?Or,are they afraid of their enemies?They`re afraid that they will lose to them when their lives are already perfect without even thinking of them.Their enemies,who are nice and hates fighting,haven`t even crossed their minds to attack others.Ugh,thinking of it makes me disgusted of these kind of people.WHY?WHY?WHY?WHY WAR?Because they`re afraid of others' success.That`s it.They think they`re 'cool' but actually they're cowards at heart.It all makes sense to me why some people are like that.It makes me realize that people's hearts aren`t always clear.It`s filthy.

But what about mine?I don`t know about that but I hope mine is still pure. *wink* .That`s all for now.Taa..

Director?Say No,No.No,No,No

I was the director of a drama,Rumpelstilskin.This is from the heart of a failure director. -_-

I didn`t try my best.I was too lazy to play my role as a director.I`m too soft to make them listen to me.I can`t control people.But,the whole class HAVE to give in their commitment as my crew.I`m not the only one in the class who has to do everything.All I have to do is shout out and tell them what to do.Then the class has to do what I tell them.

They didn`t,and is what made stressed for the whole week.they can`t come together as one and cooperate for me.Just one last time,I screamed,I shouted at them but they didin`t listen.I fell sick because of them.I felt like crying because of them.I may smiled,but only Allah S.W.T knows how I felt back then.The actors,they didn`t want to pratice.They said they can`t find the mood,the hero is a pervert,and so on.Only the addition actors gave in all they can.The heroin is the mess.She remembers her script but she gets stage fright.I knew ahe was hopeless.

I knew it was the end when they were getting ready to tep on stage.I still had to scream even though it was the last minute.I was fed up with them but it gave me joy when I was introduced as the director of the drama.I smiled that moment and gave a peace pose.But,it was only that moment when I could smile.Problem by problem came by even on stage.The speakers didn`t work and the heroin got a stage fright.She can`t even look at the audience.I was so disappointed.I ha my fault too,I was supposed to dance but I too got a stage fright but at least I tried to keep up.

In the end,everyone cheered not because we did well,it was because they didin`t even enjoy it.I had to clean up the stage and all my classmates left me except for a few.Okay,that`s enough.Taa..

I Live MY LIFE

This is b0rn from the deepest,darkest part of my heart.Hatred.

I have my life.I have my own way to go even if it`s bad or good.You have no rights here so back off.I know you`re shit and I don`t wanna be a part of you.You should know that you`re brainless and you`re nothing compared to me.Tell me I`m ugly?Accept reality,I have more beauty in me than you.Act cool?Just go on and be hated by all.Sing aloud?Come on,your voice stinks.But don`t even try to step into my life.I have bombs all over ready for you.My soldiers are never going to let you pass.I`ll kill you before you even tried.

These are always on my head now.Think I`m evil but this is the TRUTH!So please,don`t let me hate you.

Although I look like I like people,I actually get fed up with their repeating mistakes on me.I hate it when people look down on me.I have my standards okay!I hate when people try to step in my life and try to take over.I mean,it`s my life.They have their own although it`s not as good as mine.I`m always going to get what I want even it is by hook or by crook.If I am to erase them from my life,it`s my decision.Don`t try to step in.If I am to hate them,I`ll do it.It`s easy but cruel.

By this,you all know that I`m at war with a bitch.It started because she crossed my line and I started to erase her from my life.She noticed that and she started to do the same.I didn`t even talk to her.I don`t wanna even see her stupid face.But she started the World War 3 with me and another friend.She`s the one who started throwing bombs at our invincible shields.She never scratch us though,even a bit.She tells us we`re ugly but the fact is,she`s uglier than us.She tried to ruin my friend`s quiz,but she`s the one who failed.karma`s always by my side you know.Allah S.W.T is always there for me so I don`t have to be afraid.I don`t have to waste my strength to fight back.She`s losing.We all know that.

Well,I think that`s enough.I don`t want any words from my dark vocab to come out.Taa..

My Cousin`s Wedding

My cousin had wedding and surely as her cousin I HAVE TO GO!!!I MEAN,SHE`S MY COUSIN!!I LOVE MY COUSINS!!!So the wedding went smoothly with me joining the occasion and nothing went wrong.

To tell you the truth,I don`t really know my cousins from Kelantan.I rarely go to Kelantan to visit them because it`s just so far away and my cousins are all older than me so I have no one to play with.I`m kind of shy with the people I don`t really know so I just sat down and did nothing.I did try to talk and it went successfully.Now I know my cousins treat me like cousins should although we rarely meet so I`m good with that.The scary thing is,the bride remembers me as the little girl who likes to hit her.Honestly,I remember nothing of that and I promise you I`ll never hit her again :).

I`m kinda slow on picking up who`s my relative and how he/she can be a relative of mine.It`s like a long chart and my brain just can`t read it -__-.It`s kind of annoying but I`ll juat have to live up with it.So the conclusion is,I don`t know my relatives.I know it when my Mom or Dad tell me.I`ll just list he/she as my relative and that`s it.NO MORE LONG CHARTS!!

The feast was nice and I think that`s the most important thing for that kind of occasion.As usual,I like the ayam percik .DELICIOUS!!That`s all I have to say about this wedding I guess.Taa..

A Lot Has Happened

Well,it`a a long time since I updated this blog so I better do it now before I forget about it again.I meant to post on this blog a few months ago but I just forgot because I was so busy enjoying my life at home ;).A lot has happened at school and at home and I bet this post is gonna be very long.

Firstly,I`d like to congratulate myself on studying harder this year and doing my homework right (well,most of it).It`s really tough for me to do my homework and concentrate on it.I made my dream come and that is being the first in the batch.Haha,I was so proud of myself but because of that I took things too easily and kind of got lower in the next exams.After this semester,I promise I won`t do it again.That proves that I CAN be number one but I just don`t try.To be honest,I don`t like people going ahead of me but I let go of that feeling years ago.Now,it`s coming back and now I`ll have to use that feeling to be number one WITHOUT cheating.People who cheat are just LOSERS to me.Yeah,that`s what I think about them.

Honestly,I`m not the best student among the batch.I don`t do my notes,I skip prep and many more.I think I have to change but it`s hard.As you know,I hate myself when I see people going easy with their homework while I struggle and I really want to change myself.The first thing I`ll have to change is about homework.Homework is the main enemy when I`m at home but I still have to do it.I just can`t concentrate on the job.When I`m doing my homework I feel like joining the fun in front of the tv or just see my friends on Facebook.I`m not used to doing homework at home because I always do it on prep.At home,I can do anything I want to and that includes NOT doing my homework.At prep,I`ll have nothing to do but my homework so you can see how hard it is to do homework at home.

One more thing,I HATE MY FORM 1!!I pretended it was fun and exciting last year.The truth is it`s the worst year of my life.I feel like nothing last year.I was so stupid last year.I didn`t know a thing about form 1 but now I know.Now I know how it sucks.I wish last year didn`t exist! 2010??? Yeah,a cute number but there`s a lot of bad things behind it.So,as a warning,don`t remind me about my form or I`ll hate you as I hate the number 2010.Tataaa..that`s all for now.

Activity Week

Every semester,all MJSCs will have an activity week.It`s done so that the students don`t feel bored at school but the thing is,some activities are boring and the majority of students just want to stay in their dorms and rest,at least for me and my dorm mates.

This year my college`s activity seemed a little student-based because it`s handled by the Student Representative Council (BWP).To be honest,I had a pretty boring week except for that I don`t have to wear the school uniform that I hate so much.
For the opening,it was boring a usual.There was an assembly and the principal gave a loooong speech while me and friends do everything we can to avoid listening to it.Plus,the hall was too hot and we all are very tired after a long morning of learning.

I can`t remember much about it but here`s what I can tell,

There was the Alfulaillahwalaillah Night where every girl should wear our best clothes and have make-up on because it`s the night of the year for girls.NO BOYS ALLOWED!!Hahaa..that`s the best part.The PRINCESS OF THE NIGHT was my locker mate,Fahira!I`m proud to be her locker mate.The rest about the night was lame.
Next,there was a bazaar where homerooms sell food,drinks and souvenirs.For me,there was nothing special there except for the movies they show for free.
The best event for me is the DramaFest because I`m in it.But sadly,my part was for 10 seconds.

There`s not much to say here so tataa..